"In years past I felt like I wasn't showing people who I was, and just these last two years I felt I have grown and exposed myself. I am more comfortable in my skin. This is a physical representation of that emotion."


Minutes before Joslyn and Kale arrived I felt stressed and nervous. At this point I couldn't turn back, they were about to knock on my door; this is really happening. The realization that I get to be by myself and to do something I love to do shouldn't be taken for granted. In those moments no one can tell me that I am wrong, lazy or whatever insecurities one would have. I am in control of how I want to be. Being naked and photographed with two strangers in the room, while in my element, now that really threw me off!


As I disrobed, the excitement and awkwardness of stepping into another section of the condo felt ridiculous. I was walking away to get naked to only walk back in naked!  Out of nervousness, I shrieked as each piece came off, I could hear a familiar "I know how she feels" comforting laugher from the girls. Walking in, I hunched my body wanting to hide. I couldn't even look them in their eyes. I felt like Golem coming out of his cave. Calmness filled the room and a sensation that being naked was no big deal came over. I stood tall and started my movie. They made me feel like I wasn't the only one naked. In years past I felt like I wasn't showing people who I was, and just these last two years I felt I have grown and exposed myself. I am more comfortable in my skin. This is a physical representation of that emotion. 


After eating cupcakes over tea and talking about goals, it was time for me to put my clothes back on. Mentally, I didn't feel differently than when I started. However, emotionally, I felt confident and self-expressive. Today I took a risk. I did something I didn't think I would ever do. I didn't know why I wanted to participate, until now. I proved to myself that I am courageous and free.











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