"Helena and I stood there shaking and nervous, hauling on our cigarettes wondering what to do with ourselves."


I used to struggle with my self esteem very much when I was younger. In elementary school I was teased for being to skinny, I used to gorge bags of chips hoping I would gain weight. Little did I know, in high school, post puberty would be nothing but a battle not to gain weight. To say the least, I felt hideous. I succumbed to the torturous road of trying to conform to the unreachable, absurd standards society deems "perfect". I don't remember the exact moment that it happened but I finally realized how much energy and time I had wasted hiding behind my insecurities, and trying to "fix" all my perceived imperfections. I started to see myself in an entirely new light, emotionally and physically. Suddenly, I was completely comfortable in my own skin.

Today, I love my body and being naked is one of my favourite things, I often prance around my apartment going about my daily routine naked. But when you throw a complete stranger with a camera into the mix it's an entirely different concept.

I was immediately comforted by Joslyn's aura, it is so easy to be yourself around her. Despite my usual confidence with being naked, when I slipped out of my clothes I felt a little uncomfortable at first. Helena and I stood there shaking and nervous, hauling on our cigarettes wondering what to do with ourselves. As the shoot progressed, it was like the camera wasn't even there, we were beyond comfortable. Feeling the freest I have ever felt in my life, Helena and I danced around hysterically with flower tiaras and red wine, smiling and giggling with these euphoric emotions racing through us. I've always loved doing things that scare me. Once you build up the courage to step out of your comfort zone, you create space for growth, and for myself this was completely refreshing.

This experience was beyond liberating. It's quite sad, how in our most natural form we are made to feel so vulnerable. The human body is judged and exploited rather than celebrated and embraced. The Fully Disclothed Project is a moment in time where this is non-existent.

Ironically enough, by the end of the shoot I felt naked in my clothes.

"It’s hard to explain, but it’s almost as though being physically exposed, I exposed a side of my internal self that I had kept neatly tucked away in the fabric of my everyday apparel."


For me, the Fully Disclothed project ended up being a pivotal point in my growth as an individual. I went into the shoot with the mentality that it would simply be a fun and new experience to share with my best friend. However, when the camera came out and the clothes came off it was a different story. While Joslyn was great company and very comforting, I felt nervous. I felt as though the person I was before the shoot was at stake.

The vulnerability of being physically exposed superseded any sense of self I had before Joslyn had arrived. It’s hard to explain, but it’s almost as though being physically exposed, I exposed a side of my internal self that I had kept neatly tucked away in the fabric of my everyday apparel. All of sudden, there was nothing to hide behind. It was just my naked body and my raw spirit dancing around with my best friend.

The biggest thing I have taken from this experience was the understanding that I can only progress as an individual when I allow myself to be susceptible to change, and the only way to do that is to allow myself to be vulnerable. Kale and Joslyn gave me the opportunity to be myself and understand myself in the most natural way possible.

Thank you so much, my experience with the Fully Disclothed project is one that will remain near and dear to my heart for the rest of my life.

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